Last original C-Shifter is gone.

Today was my final day on C shift at the fire department. We had training tonight. We met at WSU fire. Right around seven o'clock we got a call for a dumpster fire at the Old Post Office. We went in Engine and Rescue to the call. Started out going code, however we stopped going code when we heard it was just smoking.

We got on scene. Then command asked from Rescue to come up to the scene and pack up. We got up there, however I did not have my turnout pants, since they are getting fixed. So I hung out by the engine and helped do the mop up. After that we headed back to WSU and we turned the new communication building, saw the outside of the new power plant, and then looked at one other building.

We headed to Station one since we had to use our engine to show the reserve recruits some of the hose lays. While we were down there I was helping to load the hose on the truck. I saw it was starting out messed up, I started to say "hold on, hold on, hold on,..." Then Matt said "Scott, you're messing it up." I responded "fuck off, Matt". I don't normally say things like that, but he was accusing me of messing something up in front of the new guys. What was funny was that he said that it was not appropriate for me to tell him to fuck off in front of the recruits. I was pissed.

When we got back to the station we cleaned the rigs, then had a little chat with Michael. The other person who did not know that I was leaving was Jason. But, when we told him, someone had told him. So he actually knew. No big deal really.

After everyone left the bay Matt came out and talked to me. He told me again he did not like it and thought I was out of line. I told him what I heard him say and what I was doing, and I thought what he said was out of line. He said that he think, and so do many others, that I have had a bad attitude. He said that he thinks that I heard him wrong and that I was looking at something to get mad over. I told him that is not the case. I told him it could be the case that I am not all that friendly anymore, but that is because I don't care and I am not trying anymore. If someone wants to be my friend he can put forth some effort. If someone does not care about being my friend, then I am not going to be mr. nice guy as I am crapped on by those people. I told him how I feel used by many of those people. I told him how it seems that no one is my friend, don't really want me around, but if there is a problem, they come to me. I am tired of that.

I guess in some ways I am not fake. I am not going to hang around someone and pretend to like him. If I don't like him I am just going to be quiet around him. I think both Matt and I left with a better understanding of everything. He ended by saying, so really there is not a problem; this is just the "new Scott".