In the dumps

I have been down in the dumps. I seem to have my up moments and down moments lately. Normally I don't suffer swings like that, but right now I am. I think I can look at several things that are important to me that are weight me down.

First there was what my mom found out. Then the conversation with Dave from Friday night. Add that with what happened to the Cougs, what happened with my softball team yesterday, what has been happening on G-Shack and then today someone has to go and bring up the idea that I am gay for all to see.

I made a topic and told everyone that I am indeed gay. People came back and said they are all good with me. The one person who pushed the issue said she felt bad. But if you say it didn't matter whether or not I was gay, then why would you even bother asking. And if she really cared why did not she not ask me. She posted a message about it.

Kale posted this message:
It disappoints me that people found a need to have to stick their nose in a place they didn't need to go. It's not anyone's real business. If scotty (lobo) wanted to come out and say it, he would have. You should be ashamed.

Now, Im not pointing any fingers, but my god, let this be a lesson to you. Don't mess with people's personal affairs, its not your deal. If they wanted you to know or be involved in it, they will take the initiative. Now, Scotty and I have talked about a lot of things, and it doesn't matter to me about his sexuality, what matters is that he is a kick ass guy, and you all (who poke your nose, aloud, in other's businesses) should respect that.

I'm not here to preach, just voicing my opinion on what needed to be said.

I like what Kale said there. I think of all the comments his was the best. We chatted a little bit. But there is something strange. The first few times we chatted we have a good conversation. But the last few times he is distracted at best. I will type stuff and ask questions. He responds to the question but it is not like there is a real conversation. I feel like I am the only one keeping it going.

I understand he is popular and has a lot of people who want to talk to him, so I don't hold it against him. It is just something that is tough for me to deal with. I sort of expect a certain level of commitment with the person I am chatting with, otherwise it is worthless to talk. If I wanted to watch myself type something I would write more blogs.

I sent Kale my thoughts on that. He said he was sorry. I hope I don't make him feel bad. It is just that I would love to have the kind of conversations that him and Jephren have. Or the kind of conversations that we had the first few times. Then again, if it doesn't happen it is not like it is a huge loss. It is not like I really know him all that well anyhow. LOL... I guess I can't get to know him until we can talk.