A thinly veiled life is easily shattered.

Spring break is over but I did not have class today. It was cancelled in favor of one-on-one meetings with the teacher. I was able to work a full ten hours today. I am also scheduled in the jail this evening until midnight. When five-thirty rolled around I got to my house and changed into my jail shirt and hat.

I got to the jail about six o'clock to start working. I had to work control for the whole shift because once again, I am a gimp. I am out of my walking boot in four days. I am very happy about that.

When I was done working for the evening I went to help a deputy with some computer questions he had. I was helping computer issues until one am. I headed home.

When I was there I was reading an article from my Instinct Magazine. There was an article about "Mom of the Month". It featured a gay guy who said he mom is so awesome because she accepted him, and actually helps to find him boyfriends. They showed a picture of the mom and son out at a bar somewhere.

While looking at the picture I realized why gay people are so defensive about anything that is said. In the picture, the mom and son were smiling; however it seemed like a very "thin" smile. Meaning that it would not take much to break the happiness. This also goes back to the gay-man syndrome I was talking about a few days ago with the guy from the show High School Reunion. Gay people are trying to make their fantasy world a reality. They are trying to pretend that they are normal and that the world is just fine with that.

When someone says something that the gay guy does not like, he is thrust into the reality that he is not normal and in fact what is does is not right. The gay guy is crushed and his perfect little world crashes in on him. He has to rebuild. That is why the gays like to have their own community. Gays help make other gays worlds feel more normal and perfect. But they still are a fantasy.

When someone comes along and ruins the fantasy world, the gay guy gets defensive. The smile I saw on the mom and son drove that point home. At any moment someone who call the son a queer or fag and he would be upset, and mom would get upset, they both would yell at the "homophobe" because he crushed their perfect little dream world.

I am not trying to say that it is wrong to pretend you live in a perfect little dream world, nor am I saying that being gay is a choice and they deserve rude treatment. I am saying that whether it occurs at birth or after-birth, being gay is not normal. I am also saying that living in the dream world is okay, but join the real world in progress and you will not have to worry about homophobes because you would be one.