The day after.

Today is the last day I can really think about what I will do with myself and my future. I woke up in Ryan's bed. I had no hangover no problems at all. Ryan slept on the floor in the living room. I went out into the living room. We watched Swim Fan and then I headed out.

I went to my house and packed my truck and headed to Seattle. The trip went pretty fast. The wind was so bad between Vantage and Cle Elum that I used an extra quarter tank of gas. There was a semi truck carrying half of a house (manufacture home) that was blown over in the wind. I guess it had gusts up to sixty miles per hour.

When I got home I took care of some paperwork for selling my house. I saw a realtor on Friday about it, and signed the paperwork yesterday to start the process. He thinks we can get about forty thousand more than I owe on it!

I spent part of the night talking to mom, Jon, and my friend John about what I should do about the job offer. Bill said something and I think he is right on. Jon wants me to stay and make the big bucks. Mom wants to have me around, because she misses me while I am away. Bill said I need to go where I am going to be happiest.

I don't know about ten years from now, but right now I will be the happiest in Pullman. I will be back on the fire department. I will live at home. I will be around my friends. I have a goal to be a full time fire fighter by the time I am thirty-five. Being back in Pullman is one of the steps. But I keep going back to a few things. I will turn down big bucks. I will turn down my flex hours and freedom for more structured hours and dress code.

I will go from a known to an unknown. I still think that leaving is not the best idea in the world. I keep thinking about what I will miss out on. But I know what I will miss out on. I will miss out on the money. If I don't go back I will miss out on the stuff I do there. Sadly I still don't know the answer of the question, but come morning time I suppose I will have to answer the question once and for all.

I think in my heart I have already said Pullman. But I am afraid to say yes to Mike until I get my mom's and Jon's blessing. But I think that is unrealistic for me to feel that way, but that is the way I feel about it.

I sent an E-mail to Eddie. It is his birthday today. For years I would always contact him on his birthday. He is one day younger than me. We went to middle and high school together. We played football together. Our younger brothers were on the same basketball team. Eddie and I would go to the playground of the school the basketball game was at and we would just talk about life. It was some good times.